As we travel life’s road, we often get lost. We either take a wrong turn, we missed a sign, we take a detour but, whatever, we get lost! We hit pot holes, enter strange cities we’ve never heard of and on top of it all, we meet people that we should have “just” walked away from -- but we didn’t, and it changed the course of our life…I call it “Destiny’s Plan.” I never expected this to happen, but it did. I visited Edwin, my brother this afternoon. We haven’t been alone together since the ages of seventeen and eighteen the night before the morning I had left for Hawaii. That will come later also. I emailed him yesterday to say I would be in the neighborhood and that I wanted to drop by to see him and his wife. I did not expect him to say that I was welcomed at his home considering the things that took place between us in our younger life’s that led up to the day I left for Hawaii. I rang the doorbell and he came down to open the door. I followed him up the stairs and into the living room where Tia was stretched out on the sofa reading and the TV was on. I walked over to her and kissed her on the forehead, it wasn’t like the last time at the family reunion when I had called her a cunt. Edwin wasn’t sure why I came to visit them. I didn’t come to visit them actually, I had come to visit Edwin, I needed some information from Edwin, and I had some questions to ask him and needed some answers. He looked at me strange when I reached into my back pack and pulled out a journal I had been keeping. Tia was busy with her book and the TV was loud enough to drown out our conversation, he didn’t say much to me and motioned for me to follow him into the kitchen. I told Edwin that I had been writing about my life, about the relationship I had with him (we had together) as young brothers growing up and in love and so on. I didn’t tell him I had a blog, I just told him that I was writing a book about my life, which is actually true by the way. He listened to what I had to say and I asked him some questions, I needed answers, I needed more details about our relationship that I didn’t remember anymore, I wanted the information to fill in the blank spots, the plot (pot) holes so to speak that I had mentioned earlier. At first he didn’t want to give me any information. He just looked at me and smiled, you’re serious aren’t you? You suck someone’s cock and can’t remember who the person is, but then he started off. He saw that I had written a lot already and he gave me plenty of details about our relationship when we were together as teenagers. The reason why I wanted Edwin to give me the missing details is simply because I want to end that part of my life for good! I have been writing about “my life” now for a long time and the time has come for me to move on. “I want to finish the past and start the present, concentrate on the things to come and the people in my life now.” Not the other way around. I finished getting all the details I wanted after about a couple of hours and then I left thanking Edwin for his time. Edwin did say in an asking way before I left, “leave certain things out of the book, things no one needs to know, his pornography and details. He also asked for a copy when I finish writing about him and I should it ever get published. He also wanted to know what I had already written about him, if I had put him in a good spot light or not. I do know that if he ever gets to read it before his death, he’s not going to be happy with the final results. But I don’t care: maybe he will even sue me for invading his privacy; like he didn’t take advantage of my weakness. Something I do know now, I am glad to have my cyber friends and followers who have been with me since 2007, on and off. It shows me that people “do” care and have interest in my life; it shows that people still care about me. The support I receive here is what keeps me going -- LUV -- RObin
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